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  kiwifarms is literally a harrassment factory 
 There are multiple happenings, which is why I, a humble public servant, have
 categorized them for you.  
   
 **Local News**
     * Lego Company [sends an email](/threads/2019-08-29-the-lego-group-unauthorized-use-of-the-lego-group-intellectual-property-kiwifarms-net-case-652509.60303/).  
 (Update: They've officiated a [DMCA takedown notice](/threads/2019-08-29-the-
 lego-group-unauthorized-use-of-the-lego-group-intellectual-property-kiwifarms-
 net-case-652509.60303/post-5250463) to 1776hosting.)  
 (Update #2: They've sent me [another, identical complaint](/threads/2019-08-29
 -the-lego-group-unauthorized-use-of-the-lego-group-intellectual-property-
 kiwifarms-net-case-652509.60303/post-5276312).)
 
     * We're back on DDG, Bing, Yahoo, Qwant et al after they've [re-indexed Kiwi Farms](/threads/duckduckgo-has-blocked-kiwi-farms.60111/), recognizing our territorial soverignty and international charters.
     * Finally, a [good fuckin' mailbag](/threads/2019-09-02-jayden-desino-harassment-in-my-youtube-comments-and-thread-issue.60455/). (Update: They've sent me [their own IC3 report](/attachments/b7dafe47-fd44-482d-9c41-749bb079ff74-page-001-jpg.919920/) where they told the FBI I called them a retard.)
   
   
 **Internet Drama**
     * Alec Holowka [has killed himself](/threads/zoe-quinn-chelsea-van-valkenburg-locke-valentine-unburntwitch-primeape-crashoverride.14263/post-5257942) after being accused of sex abuse by Zoe Quinn.
     * Lowtax [gives a shoutout](/threads/richard-lowtax-kyanka.1222/post-5268022).
     * Local swamp monster [Brianna Wu was with Cenk "The Armenian Genocide Didn't Happen" Uygur on TYT](/threads/2019-aug-27-brianna-wus-appearance-on-the-young-turks.60490/).
   
   
 **Weeb Menace**
     * Uncovered sworn statements against Ron Toye indicate [he is a lifelong domestic abuser](/threads/monica-rial-monica-jean-rial-rialisms-ron-toye-ronald-toye-iii-rontoye3.55353/post-5236094).
     * Everyone working on DBZ just had [Funimation audio leaks](/threads/funimation-audio-leaks.60342/).
     * Vic's representation [has filed a 1,200 page counter](/threads/victor-mignogna-v-funimation-productions-llc-et-al.55556/post-5257111) to the TCPA.
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 I was directed to a recovery program. No thanks, I already went to high school
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 31 minutes ago
 
 I'd much rather end up freezing to death in a ditch than getting locked in a
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 31 minutes ago
 
 Good! Keep trying, don't give up. I'd like to read some of your writing if you
 get back into it
 
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 31 minutes ago
 
 I've kind of started drinking probably too often. Not that I'm trying to fall
 down a hole, it's just that I still like getting fucked up and playing vidya,
 and I don't want to be stoned all the time anymore, and it's been a few years
 since I was into the RC scene enough to know what to try and where to get it
 
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 31 minutes ago
 
 (RIP MXE)
 
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 30 minutes ago
 
 By the way, that freezing to death story is not an exaggeration, I knew a guy
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 30 minutes ago
 
 I've heard that's not particularly uncommon
 
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 29 minutes ago
 
 He got a free 12-pack every week and probably spent the majority of his pay
 check on booze. After a cold snap the cops found him dead in his lean-to under
 a bridge somewhere.
 
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 29 minutes ago
 
 Oh, I was thinking more of people who freeze walking home
 
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 29 minutes ago
 
 [@Locomotive Derangement](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/37821/), different
 help, doesn't have to be a substance abuse thing, I don't think they're
 helpful unless you've multiple addictions with co-morbid complications. It's
 usually only helpful if it's court ordered and no voluntary. Too easy to
 network or mix with people who don't want to get better
 
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 28 minutes ago
 
 He apparently dressed and acted sane enough that nobody knew he was homeless
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 27 minutes ago
 
 that's sad
 
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 27 minutes ago
 
 I think I've gone soft
 
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 27 minutes ago
 
 If you have seen the quality of mental health in this place, you'd be drinking
 under a bridge in the dead of winter too.
 
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 27 minutes ago
 
 [@Locomotive Derangement](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/37821/), same here tbh
 
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 26 minutes ago
 
 Is eating cockles for breakfast a bad idea?
 
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 25 minutes ago
 
 Probably better than having beer for breakfast like I am.
 
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 23 minutes ago
 
 I'd kill for some vodka and peach schnapps, ngl. Been making cocktails lately.
 Later, maybe...
 
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 23 minutes ago
 
 Oh yeah, also on the mental health front, a few people I know managed to go
 completely clean. No weed, few beers, no liquor, etc.
 
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 23 minutes ago
 
 They have turned into complete emotional wrecks. Like, sobbing every day for
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 23 minutes ago
 
 no weed? all my wat
 
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 22 minutes ago
 
 I had a relative over recently and a good two hours of it was just waiting
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 21 minutes ago
 
 for no reason?
 
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 21 minutes ago
 
 My response to that stressful situation was to just buy another 12 pack.
 
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 21 minutes ago
 
 There are "reasons" for the attacks such as stress and some horrible shit that
 happened in the past but there were no actual triggers.
 
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 20 minutes ago
 
 you sure the addiction and all the hassle that comes with it isn't making them
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 20 minutes ago
 
 Mine is hidden quite well from them.
 
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 19 minutes ago
 lol humble high functioning brag
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 19 minutes ago
 
 People generally fail to notice when I'm drunk in the daytime, they think i'm
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 19 minutes ago
 
 reliance on alcohol usually means someone isn't mentally well anyway. Alcohol
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 19 minutes ago
 
 Bridge hobo hid it well too though lol
 
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 19 minutes ago
 
 I agree, but the alternatives seem quite disturbing to me.
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 usually if someone drops it it's a good idea for them to use therapy or
 something to deal with whatever it was that led them into addiction and self-
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 [@Rio](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/17/), agree
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 because just going clean usually only fixes half the problem
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 it doesn't fix why someone became an alcoholic in the first place
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 so it becomes too easy to relapse
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 but that's just what I think
 
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 18 minutes ago
 
 Yeah bridge hobo should have a plaque or something to show people that our
 mental health system is so fucked he just quietly accepted his fate and let
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 18 minutes ago
 
 Stress from work?
 
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 17 minutes ago
 
 deal with the feels, don't numb, you bum! Unless it's anal feels, then numb
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 17 minutes ago
 
 He wasn't on drug or anything either that I know of, he just got wasted in his
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 [@Spl00gies](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/23299/), first time you ve left me
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 [@Hortator](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/7331/), sure it is
 
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 16 minutes ago
 
 My point is I'm not in a hurry to quit drinking myself to death if I'm gonna
 turn into a wreck that starts sobbing constantly.
 
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 [@Spl00gies](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/23299/), well, there was that time I
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 15 minutes ago
 
 People already think I'm enough of a tard as it is.
 
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 Very good skeleton, almost completely intact
 
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 15 minutes ago
 
 if you'd turn into a sobbing wreck without booze, you need to fix that without
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 Local doctors here lean heavily on the "Suck it up" method of psychology due
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 [@Locomotive Derangement](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/37821/), doctors here
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 12 minutes ago
 
 Here is basically recovery program or suck it up.
 
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 Or become bridge hobo.
 
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 11 minutes ago
 
 DIY it. Write about how detox feels, if you can't hold a cup or a pen through
 any shakes, have some first aid (small drink, only one) until you aren't
 shaking. Keep at it, lower amounts and extend days between drinking. You can
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 11 minutes ago
 
 if you think not drinking will turn you into a crying wreck, there's some
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 11 minutes ago
 
 ^ this
 
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 I have managed to stop drinking for brief spells. I have episodes where I just
 stare at things and feel the onset of sobbing attacks, so whatever my
 relatives have is definitely in my blood too.
 
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 9 minutes ago
 
 Yeah, alcoholism. Most will sob and have emotional/mood issues when sobering
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 9 minutes ago
 
 Back before I drank I used to deal with it by getting monumentally pissed off
 and abusive. For whatever reason that simply won't return when I'm sober, so I
 feel really disarmed.
 
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 8 minutes ago
 
 and you want that back? you obviously have issues with emotional regulation.
 Work on those and it will get easier. Drink/drugs won't help though
 
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 I suspect if I was more physically fit I'd be one of those kinds of people
 that goes out and gets into fights for no reason.
 
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 6 minutes ago
 
 Yes I want that anger and controlling behavior back, it gave me a sense of
 agency and made people stay the fuck out of my way. Now I'm like, helpless. It
 sucks, I barely have the will to get out of bed half the time.
 
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 why can't you connect with people?
 
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 5 minutes ago
 
 you do fine in chat
 
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 I find them horrendously simple-minded.
 
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 I'm not even what I would consider a smart person.
 
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 4 minutes ago
 
 what makes people as a whole simple minded?
 
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 isnt therapy super easy to get in murica
 
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 4 minutes ago
 
 Like, smart people are nuclear physicists or chemists and shit. But most
 conversations I have with anyone else are like, so fucking banal and
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 3 minutes ago
 
 [@Melchett](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/61/), I always thought it'd be easier
 than accessing therapy in the UK
 
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 You can get therapy over here it just hasn't evolved since the 1960s.
 
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 2 minutes ago
 
 [@Locomotive Derangement](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/37821/), do you think
 in black and white often?
 
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 [@Spl00gies](https://kiwifarms.pl/members/23299/) No, I actually think in kind
 of a gradient. It really confuses people.
 
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 I mean you spoke pretty highly of bridge hobo
 
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 gradients are so 2000s
 
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 1 minute ago
 
 SPECTRUM is where it's at
 
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 1 minute ago
 
 I never knew bridge hobo personally, I just know he represents a problem I'm
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 Or rather, he was the victim of a larger menace I'm now dealing with.
 
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